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  • Good Day Sunshine

    I’ll be honest. I didn’t really want a steel wire threaded up from my wrist to the inside of my heart. Abundant anxiety as my brother and I tried to find our way through the maze of hallways at Kaiser Walnut Creek. No one seemed to know where I was supposed to be for my…

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  • Heart of Gold

    Some merciful good news last night. I had an echocardiogram yesterday (that’s an ultrasound of the heart), and it showed no damage and my heart working normally. The aorta is slightly dilated (hmm, Dr. Google has a lot to say about that), but the cardiologist is not concerned, at least for now. Big exhale. Nonetheless,…

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  • How Can You Mend a Broken Heart

    In the battle to own control of my thoughts, ruminating about cancer is the strongman. It muscles its was into my consciousness past everything else. As my friend Lorena, who is waging her own battle, said last week: “I think about this fucking cancer every day. It’s always in the back of my mind. No…

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